We have entered a period of intense darkness. At this time more than any other we have to cling to Allah. Minister Farrakhan’s words keep replaying themselves in my head: “Allah is the only Reality.” Everything that we see around us will surely come to pass. The only reality we have is our relationship with our Creator. If we sincerely do our part to better our understanding of God then we will also begin to understand ourselves a little better as well. If we do not grow to see Allah properly then we will never grow to see ourselves in the proper light either. It is imperative today that we turn toward our Creator no matter what name you call Him and seek His refuge. Read the current issue of the Final Call Newspaper in Farrakhan: The Traveler by Brother Jabril Muhammad. In this article Minister Farrakhan addresses the dangers we face during this dark time we have entered as well as how best to guard ourselves from the full ramifications of being engulfed by this spiritual darkness. Up until recently I was completely engrossed in darkness. I could not see which way to go and it seemed like every move I made was a wrong one. It is still very dark and I am trying to find my way with the help of Allah. I am just so thankful that I Allah blessed me to hold on long enough for the Honorable Minister Louis Farrakhan to recognize me in my suffering. He came back for me and I am forever thankful. He reached one hand out to me and the other one he is holding that blazing torchlight illuminating our way through the darkness. I can’t even begin to take any credit for making it to this point. It is only by the grace of God.
Before Hurricane Katrina disturbed my existence I was involved in a personal project attempting to assess how best I would attempt to help Minister Farrakhan in the work of resurrecting our people. I was already dealing with my personal hurt and pain over losing my sister to an untimely death. Really I was a mess. I still am in a lot of ways. I’m ready to start the healing process now. I know it won’t be easy for me. I know that I don’t yet have the capacity to love like Minister Farrakhan loves. I know I don’t yet have the patience or long suffering I am going to need in order to be of help to Minister Farrakhan in reaching our people in a meaningful way. I also know that I am crazy as hell because I came up out of hell. Trust me when I tell you that I did not drop down out of heaven. I know I’m throwed off. I think its better that I know this before attempting to help heal myself by helping God’s Messenger redeem fallen man. At least I’m not deluding myself with false images of my own purity. I hope that you will have patience with me as I attempt to rediscover that little God within me by combing through my journal entries from about 4 years ago when I first decided to embark on this journey of self discovery. I pray that Allah causes me to share something with you that will spark in you the desire to help in this great work of Resurrecting and Liberating the Black man and woman all over the Earth.
